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Happily Ever After Is Not A Destination

Happily Ever After Is Not A Destination
Carly Jacobs

Hello Smagglets! I don’t usually introduce guest posters like this but last time Coco guest posted here I received a lot of emails from horrified people who thought I’d callously broken up with Mr Smaggle, immediately replaced him and then blogged about my new lover in the span of about a day. Coco and I have similar writing styles (and I frequently publish guest posts under my own name because the internet is hard!)  so I’m putting an extra disclaimer out there before people freak out that I’ve done the dirty on Mr Smags ‘again’. This post is by Coco, not me. As you were. Oh and Mr Smaggle was totally stoked with how supportive everyone was when we ‘broke up’. He thinks you’re all very sweet. Over to Coco with her thoughts on why Happily Ever After is not a destination. 

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said something really stupid the other night. In the middle of a state-of-the-union ‘Where are we at? Where are we going?’ type of conversations with my man, I said ‘If we do end up living Happily Ever After…’

Then I heard myself and said: ‘No, actually – fuck that. We’re not going to end up living Happily Ever After’.

This wasn’t a break-up. I definitely haven’t disregarded the possibility that I might in fact spend the remainder of my life raising fat, drooly babies and grand-babies (or indeed pirating the waters off south-east Asia) with this man. But I’m not going to end up with him.

Relationships don’t ‘end up’. Despite what Disney (and How I Met Your Mother and Sex and the City and Harry Potter) tell us, I’ve come to think that relationships only ever have ‘ends’ when they are actually ending.

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A relationship between two people is an ever-changing, ever-fluid thing.  By its very nature, it is always in the middle. There are make-or-break moments, there are crystallising moments and sure, there are moments when you look at someone and think ‘Holy shit – I want to look at you forever and ever and ever’. But they’re also characterized by never, ever knowing what might happen tomorrow.

Now, I totally understand why the writers of How I Met Your Mother, Sex and The City and JK Rowling went with their Happily Ever After conclusions: stories have to end and conclusive endings to great stories can be intensely satisfying. I know for one that I completely understood (in the sense of ‘no unauthorized sequels’) and appreciated (in the sense of Harry and Ginny, hurrah!) the epilogue to Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. But our lives are not stories and if they are the ending is…well, you know what I mean.

I got married once and we thought at the time that while our wedding was obviously a beginning it was also an ending of sorts. Person chosen, life (at least theoretically) mapped out. End scene. The beginning of Happily Ever After is always the end of the story. Except it’s not. My marriage didn’t last – our Ever Afters (Happy or Otherwise) won’t be spent with each other, partly (I think) because we saw it as a conclusion. I know many others whose happily-ever-afters didn’t come to be because of miscommunication, unfulfilled expectation, inability to compromise, death, and the greatest of unknowable forces: change.

But even those partnerships that do last aren’t the end of the story. Loving someone is hard fucking work a lot of the time and even when a relationship is joyous and synchronised and soul-to-the-wall committed it’s active and it’s living. It’s in the moment, not Ever After. Every day is an exercise in compromise, discovery and negotiation, in selflessness and selfishness. And that’s if it goes well.

But isn’t that kind of liberating? That there’s no last page?

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What do you think? Are you looking for Happily Ever After? Are you living it? Do you think it exists?

 

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P.S Carly here again! Here’s an article I wrote a while ago called How To Be An Awesome Partner in case you need a bit of a relationship shake up!

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10 Comments

  1. merilyn 9 years ago

    great post smags and coco! … agree, agree, agree! … I was married “once upon a time” a child bride! … OMG who was she?
    one child later, i struggled to keep it together for that long! it was a difficult relationship! … we grew in different directions!
    after art school came a NEW life! … i divorced after 24yrs of above crap! … I was going to be a woman on my own!
    well that lasted all of two months! … when I fell head over heals, shaking at the knees, in love with sig other! … that was 20 yrs ago! we are still smitten, yes we fight but we get over it quickly, laugh, grow and change give each other space and it’s a good thing! … it’s a work in progress and we keep evolving and we are not married as we don’t need to be!
    cheers guys! love m:)X … I’m no spring chicken but I feel like it!

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      Carly Jacobs 9 years ago

      See that’s exactly the point! You never really know what happens in relationships and they’re two people involved so they’re ever changing. I’m so glad you’re happy and that everything worked out! Love!

  2. NOMAD/nester 9 years ago

    Great post and so so true – who wants a Disney inspired relationship anyway! Keep up the great posting 🙂

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      Carly Jacobs 9 years ago

      Thanks! I’ll have to co-erce Coco to do more posting for me… as much as I love the blog I do need a break sometimes! 🙂

  3. nonnuclearmaven 9 years ago

    My partner and I have just finished a Making Stepfamilies Work course because a) childrens are hard work, b) starting a relationship when one person is in the “middle” is hard and c) relationships in general are hard. 60% of stepfamilies end because of unresolved differences and toxic dynamics. I’d really like to be in the 40% that work for the long haul. Love just isn’t enough, it takes patience, dedication and adaptability, a willingness to be pulled up on shitty behavior never hurts either! Great piece Coco and Smags!

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      Carly Jacobs 9 years ago

      Oh my goodness I didn’t even realise they existed. What a fantastic idea! It’s so true, love isn’t enough and you both have to be on the same page and be working on the relationship to make it work. Well done you – I love hearing stories like that!

      x

  4. “A relationship between two people is an ever-changing, ever-fluid thing.” …oh my goodness, YES! Tomorrow marks 10 years since I began dating the man I now call my husband. I’ve spent my entire 20s with him and have just entered my 30s with him. Have I changed? You bet! Has he changed? Yep! We’re constantly evolving separately and together. We have good days, bad days, amazing days and boring days. It’s life. And it’s a life I’m loving living with him. x

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      Carly Jacobs 9 years ago

      I totally agree! Mr Smags and I are just shy of our 9 year anniversary and we can’t even believe how quickly time flew. We’re also talking about we keep ‘choosing’ each other. It’s kind of one of the reasons why we aren’t married. We like the idea of not locking it down and making it a thing that we continue to choose every day. You and your man are so gorgeous together and happy date-aversay! xxx

  5. Sarah Jensen 9 years ago

    Love this post. I can relate to signing up for the Disney life (married early) and ending up like Cinderella who fell asleep in the broom closet and missed her visit from the fairy godmother (divorced). 10 years later and I’m in a fantastic, happy, supportive, marriage free relationship where life is ‘better with each other than without’. Thanks for the great perspective.

  6. Nina 9 years ago

    Gorgeous post!

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